She is too scared of love, she believes.
She builds walls of glass around, seals it with brick and mortar. There are few places, left untouched; a see-through area to connect with the world.
There are times when people come closer to the glass, it almost feels like love.
It isn’t love, just an illusion of closeness. With time, that illusion becomes comfortable – even with a glass wall. When no one tries to break the glass, she loses interest. Well, for her it is better that way – she remains protected.
There are people constantly trying to break into her space – hitting the walls with clubs and hammer. Not everybody finds the see-through glass wall either.
She, on the other hand, doesn’t stop at one place. When she loses interest, she moves on or just stares at the walls or into oblivion. Maybe that creates anger within the people trying to get in through the glass wall – when they can’t get her attention, they scratch the glass walls. They are hurt, of course, they thought it was love.
However, they don’t know, that it is not love – they aren’t even close to her. They just see her but feel nothing!
The shrieks of nails on glass hurts her, makes her feel guilty for not letting them in…
…or at least for not telling them that unless they’re on the inner side of the glass wall, they can neither feel her nor the love.
Unless she doesn’t let them in, it is not love. It isn’t sheets of ice but glass which their love can’t thaw!
She cannot let them in.
She hasn’t loved yet.
She is too scared to love.